Wednesday, November 22, 2006
i'm reflecting on life.
next year 209 is really splitted.
even though i got the combi i wanted, besides music.
not happy.
i knew this was coming all along.
and now i'm china and its so cold u know, that kind of bleary day which u just feel like rotting and freezing.
i decide to blog. XD
thank me ziyan!
thankyou everyone in 209.
esp. kexin,val,nat,deborah,ziyan,ruimin, sweehoon.
so anyway, i was drained.
cause of some piano thing.
then now i'm empty.
great.
thankyou for the "tribute" kexin.
although i haven't read it yet.
but next year we different class le.
you 305 i 310.
not very far apart, but still i have no one to yak to during class.
i miss band.
i miss euphos.
i miss the fun when we look at new scores, and snatch over parts and pushing all the solos to mellissa and freaking out over the soli.
i miss looking at my blog.
i miss going out.
i miss maple.
i miss the singapore weather.
i miss staying up late msn-ing.
but i'm not sure if i want it all back.
does it matter so much if i don't get to 3rd job.
if i don't get that fantastic sound the first time i play a piece.
if i don't sms that much.
if i don't have msn.
if i don't have a ipod.
if i don't go out.
if i'm not in the same class as some people.
if i'm not in nanyang.
and when i go back to band, kexin will be gone, overseas.
am i overly weird?
i'm just too pampered, i just can't work under stress.
i just can't do a bit of dirty work.
maybe i caretoo much.
maybe i don't care at all.
what's my problem.
do i even believe in anything?
do i have faith in anything?
i guess not.
OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
i can see my blog!!!!
so here goes the tag replies!
ziyan: YES westlife is amazing! thankyou for what u put on ur blog about me.
deborah: AHA. disneyland like got nothing lei.
my whole reflective somber mood is GONE!
aha i'm happy now. not empty.
EDIT:i decided to edit something.
but now i forgot what i wanted to blog
cause blogger responded very very very retardedly.
haiya.
anyway. i feel very alone here.
i wanted to go out shopping for stuff for deb and ziyan.
but then, i couldn.t cause i pissed my parents off
and just before they left, i cried..
so..
anyway. going to look for nice blogskins now..
12:48 PM